NP: Black or White – Michael Jackson, Dangerous
I always followed the beat of my own drum in the romance department. I didn’t see a lot of people like me on television growing up. So, I was indeed unique. As a kid my extended family members would always whisper to each other how I (liked white boys). The kicker is, I had not done anything to make them think so. As a matter of fact, I spent most of my adolescence trying to subconsciously convince my parents that I wasn’t attracted to anyone (my parents were strict…really strict). It actually ended up going the opposite way, my mom was convinced I was a lesbian. Which wasn’t true either but, me growing up in a religious household made that belief come with another set of issues. I won’t even get started on what I was accused of, lol. I can’t figure out how she came up with that to this day. She went through my room everyday when I was at school. So, I’m almost POSITIVE she came across that hidden picture of Johnathan Taylor Thomas in my room. Before I go into the whole, me liking guys who didn’t look like me, thing. I’ll go into why I was hiding the fact that I liked guys. After all it’s pretty much a natural fact that eventually most people will be attracted to someone.
Jesus of Suburbia- Green Day
I had the worlds strictest parents in the history of parents. My parents were strict and afrocentric when I was growing up. My mom was the one who raised my sisters and I, because my dad worked a lot. My older sister pretty much laid half of the groundwork for why myself and my other 2 sisters weren’t allowed to do much. Hell, I wasn’t even allowed to think my own thoughts my mom was so strict. To this day, I still have no idea how she got away with half of the things that she did. Or even, why my sister would attempt it. My parents are full believers of whoopins (not spankings, I think that word is too soft. Also, yes I know it’s technically whippings but this is the word most people I know use). I’m pretty sure we all got them all the way up to 17 or 18. I was scared shitless, but apparently my other 3 sisters weren’t because they did things I didn’t have the balls to attempt. So, basically boys were bad. So, basically even 4-year-old me knew that if boys were bad then liking boys that didn’t look like me were worse.
Everybody Knows – Leonard Cohen
So, pretty much everyone could sense that I was into guys that didn’t have my coloring. All I knew was that I was always attracted to all kinds of guys, guys of different colors and cultures. The very first boy who I liked was a Mexican boy that went to my catholic preschool. He dressed like Zorro without the cape, lol. Hey, don’t judge it was a different time. I’m pretty sure no one knew I liked him though. I’ve been introverted my whole life so I wasn’t blabbing about who I was into to the world. My one sister knew, but we are only a few years apart and we shared a room for a while. I was pretty much like every 90’s middle school cliché that wrote in her diary while looking out her window on her window seat. Minus the diary, because I am a internalizer. I internalize my shit, lol. I wrote stories down, but not feelings. I couldn’t have a paper trail. Remember, my mom went through my room everyday that I went off to school. Also minus the window seat. I wanted one sooooo bad. I wanted to do major middle school shit from my window. I was also in elementary school. So, there was that. My next crush was this gorgeous dark complected guy. I liked him for a little while when I was younger. He went to my church, and sense I lived there…yeah a lot of stories happened there. Most of them with me as the lookout or accomplice. My sister was a rebel. Another story for another time, lol.
Modern Day Romance- Nitty Gritty Dirt Band
Now, I’m pretty forward about my interest in men of all cultural backgrounds. I lived with the whispers long enough to not care. I’m sure at this stage in my life my parents are just glad that I may reproduce soon. You would be surprised to see the way parents evolve into acceptance when they think you may be alone forever, lol. Also, we live in a different time. Examples of different relationship types are everywhere. I think because we now see these relationships everywhere we are becoming more accepting as a society. At the very least society is becoming desensitized to it. Dating has come a very long way, and I’m also a millennial adult. People are more forthcoming about who gets their party going to their loved ones and friends. I’m interested in documenting my past/ present experiences as well as knowledge that I’ve come across with the rest of you. I know most of you are looking for ways to chart the territories of modern-day dating. I look forward to seeing this blog evolve and see where it can take us. I hope I can make you laugh, have some great discussions and you leave feeling a little better afterwards or at least make you think. Lol! I love you guys. Hit that replay button on the playlist if you need a second go around. Don’t forget to Like this post and Subscribe to the blog! Feel free to comment your thoughts to the post! Bye! Besos!